Monday, January 25, 2010

here today, gone tomorrow. give me eyes for that which is eternal.

"And I saw that all labor and all achievement spring from man's envy of his neighbor. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind." -- Ecclesiastes 4:4

School, work, church, activities, achievement, failure, success, effort, victory, joys, losses, gains... all of it is meaningless, a chasing after the wind, if it is not connected to my Source... if it is not centered around You.

I don't want time to merely pass. I don't want it to be a blur.

Lord, unbury me. Define this life.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Monday, January 11, 2010

Worthy


"Beautiful Man
Beautiful God
You're more than worth my time
More than worth these longings of my heart
Left unfulfilled
Just for a time...

Take it all...
Just give me Jesus

I don't want any other lovers...

All my devotion belongs to this Man..."

~Kristene Mueller~

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

They looked to Him and were radiant.


I simply cannot settle for anything less than the Fullness and Love that is God. I've tried. It works for awhile. First I get dull and then I become antsy, and then it doesn't work anymore. And by no means do I fully feel, grasp, know, or understand His fullness. But that's what I like about Him. There's always more to Him, and so there's never an excuse to be truly bored.

"...know this Love that surpasses knowledge - that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God." - Ephesians 3:19

We are blessed to hunger and thirst for Him. Because He is ALL that fulfills.

I'm so not content with "normal." I remember thinking as a little girl that my life was not normal, and that what I wanted the most was to just be what I thought was normal and to have what I thought was a normal life. Now I cannot be satisfied with "normal." I am not satisfied with just getting by, or with being "kind of passionate."

When I read the very Word of God, I see that the ways He is, the ways that He interacts with people, the ways that His people respond to Him (both old and new testaments), seem anything but normal. It's downright seemingly crazy sometimes.

I don't want to live half-heartedly. I want to live radically, with passion, with an undivided heart, like David. I want to look to my Creator and be radiant.

God, cultivate passion in me. True, lasting passion that transcends mere mood and emotion. Passion that binds me to you in true devotion. Passion, devotion, and radiance that consistently spills over into every part of my day and every aspect of my life and extends to every person I'm around... But that is impossible for me. It's only possible for You in and through me. You must increase, I must decrease. Thank You for Your patience with me.